The first time I saw my Human Design chart, my reaction was immediate: offence and hurt. I have an empty head! How could my head be empty, when the mind is the main instrument I use to follow my curiosity, earn my living and get to know the world?
The center of inspiration and the center of conceptualisation – both white in my chart. For someone whose mind has been her best friend for as long as she can remember, this wasn’t an easy picture to accept.
Over time, as I went deeper into this material, I understood that an undefined mind isn’t empty. It amplifies the mental pressure of the people around it – you tend to take on other people’s questions as your own, you worry about other people’s problems. The center of conceptualisation does something similar with beliefs: you feel certain about ideas that aren’t yours, and you defend them as though they were. You can be rigid and absolute about all kinds of beliefs, theories, approaches.
Now, when my mind starts spinning around a topic, I ask myself: is this topic mine? Usually it belongs to someone I’ve met recently. When I think clearly, I’m usually alone. With the center of conceptualisation the question is different: can I let two opposing opinions coexist in my mind at the same time, and be at peace with that?
Wisdom accumulates differently than I expected. Not as systematic knowledge, but as a feeling. Different points of view, gathered over the years. I feel what resonates and what doesn’t.
An undefined center isn’t a deficit. It’s an invitation to understand how you collect experiences, how you sense different expressions depending on the people you’re with, how those observations turn into wisdom – in your own unique way, rather than following social models and templates.
Do you know which of your centers are undefined? How do you experience them? Where do you struggle with the inconstancy of your energy
Where to from here?
If you recognize yourself in these questions, The Transition Map is the place to explore them. I help people who are living someone else’s life find their own. Six months of individual work in three directions – where you are, who you are, and which way to go – where, together, we analyze what in you is steady and what has been absorbed from your environment.
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